It?s a tired fascination
With everything I?m not and
Wasting nights wondering, trying to figure out
Or maybe if I?m quiet, maybe if I?m light
Or maybe I?ll be something, someone you?ll like
Chorus
If I?m smaller and if I?m different
Just a little less would you love me
If I wasn?t this with some bigger lips
And some smaller hips
Would you love me
verse 2
It?s an overdone obsession with chasing what I?m not
And something I?ve been hiding, space I?m talking up
And slouching in my shoulders, and curving in my back
Afraid that all the space I?m in is just to much to have
Chorus
If I?m smaller and if I?m different
Just a little less would you love me
If I wasn?t this with some bigger lips
And some smaller hips
Would you love me
And I can?t change, what just stays the same
So I keep trying, to love me how I?m made
I know
I?m hating on my mother
I?m disrespecting dad
But, spending nights trying to change the way I am
And tearing at my structure, pulling at my skin
Just wishing I was smaller and different
And I?m spitting on the people who love me just like this
Who don?t wish I was smaller or less of anything
And I?m yelling in my silence, so make the voices stop
And let me sleep in quite
Nothing can let I ought to be
Chorus
smaller and different
Just a little less so you can love me
With none of this and some bigger lips
And some smaller hips
So you can love me
Outro
And I can?t change, what just stays the same
But I keep trying, to love me how I?m made
How I?m made
Yeah, I?m made
How I?m made
If I?m smaller and if I?m different
Just a little less would you love me
If I wasn?t this with some bigger lips
And some smaller hips
Would you love me