To think of my task is chilling
To know i was carefully building the
Mask i was wearing
For two years, swearing i'd tear it off
I've sat in the dark explaining
To myself that i'm straining to
Hard for feelings
I ought to find easily
Called myself jezebel I don't believe
Before i say that the vows we've made
Weigh like a stone in my heart
Family is family, don't let this tear us apart
You lie there, an innocent baby
I feel like the thief who is raiding your
Home
Entering and breaking and taking in every room
I know your feelings are tender
Inside you the embers still
Glow but i'm a shadow, i'm only a bed of blackened coal
Call myself jezebel for wanting to leave
I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word
To describe the sacred tie that bound me to you
I'm just saying we've mistaken one for thousands of word and for
That mistake I've caused you such pain that i damn that word!
I've no more ways to hide
That i'm a desolate and hollow place inside
I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word
To describe the sacred tie that bound me to you
I'm not saying love's a plaything
No, it's a powerful word
Inspired by strong desire to bind myself to you
How i wish that we never had tried to be
Man and his wife to weave our lives into a blindfold
Over both our eyes