I love to sleep cause I pretend that I'm dead,
But I hate waking up cause it's hard to forget,
That I've lost all control of this life I've held so dear.
And I wait for the bus but I'm not on the bench,
I'm just spread across the ground making friends with cement,
And I hope the bus won't miss me when it comes my way.
Well I made a few jokes but they said they weren't funny,
I tried to force a smile but they said it was ugly,
I tried to make a friend but no one was a friend to me.
Poured my heart to a girl and it went on the floor,
I asked her what she wanted and she said she wanted more,
I tried to find a lover, all I found was an enemy.
I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself,
I don't make a sound by my eyes scream out help,
And I start to struggle to hold myself back,
From thrusting my head straight through the xxxxing glass.
And I'm tired of falling for girls that don't care,
And breaking my back to try to make them aware,
That I'm more than depressed, and there time won't be wasted,
But I am just a broken boy that no one wants to play with.
Now I'm lost in this hole and I'm sure I am stuck,
And I can't run away cause I'm lazy as xxxx.
So I sit on the floor and gather my thoughts,
And they're full of broken promises that only piss me off.
Well I lost control when I only a boy,
The world taught me angst when I deserved joy.
Now I'm breaking down as I struggle to breath,
Cause I believe in a god who won't believe in me.
I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself,
I don't make a sound by my eyes scream out help,
And I start to struggle to hold myself back,
From thrusting my head straight through the xxxxing glass.
And I'm tired of falling for girls that don't care,
And breaking my back to try to make them aware,
That I'm more than depressed, and there time won't be wasted,
But I am just a broken boy that no one wants to play with.