All my life,
I've been fighting a war
I can't talk to you or your friends
It's not only you,
My heart jumps around when I'm alluded to
This will not do
'Cause I was raised up to be admired,
to be noticed
But when you're withdrawn,
it's the closest thing
To assoult when all eyes are on you
This will not do
I'm faking glory,
Lick my lips toss my hair
And turn the smile on
And the story's brand-new
But I can take it from here,
I'll find my own bravado
It's a switch flipped
It's a pill tipped back
It's a moon eclipsed, oh
And I can tell you that when the lights come on I'll be ready for this
It's in your bloodstream
A collision of atoms that happens before your eyes
It's a marathon run or a mounatin you scaled without thinking of size
I was frightened of every little thing
that I thought was out to get me down
To trip me up and laugh at me,
But I learned not to want the quiet of the room
with no one around to find me out
I want the applause, the approval, the things that make me go, oh