can't find the forest
too stuck on the trees
but now you're invested,
so i'm left pretending
it's all i can see
i asked for a window
to open my cell
you came as kaleidoscopes
climbing, colliding
you came as yourself
whether i'm ready
is not up to me
we go where we're ordered
to bunker or beach
to the close of creation
as shells and stories
a spiral staircase
Astoria, Queens
i claimed you while conscious
got sleepy, forgetful,
and left you in dreams
you folded your leg
right foot to left knee
you laughed at my back
said you couldn't believe
how violent I could be
just brushing my teeth
drove from the service
spent in my seat
my woman beside me
a clutch of hydrangeas
a strange sort of peace
in loss, i'm made certain
unveiled clarity
it's you i will marry
my lover, my family
you always will be
but every word
seemed too small to speak
so we watched the sky reach
ambivalent peaks
we made our projections
present and free