I'm not good at making friends
When I find one it usually ends
It happens all the time
I guess the fault is mine
I fell in love once, it didn't last
And now he's just a boy from my past
Can't shake this heartache in my chest
But I still wish him all the best
I don't mind being alone
It's not as hard as being known
But still sometimes I wonder what
It would be like to open up
I've never felt like this before
Always been fine with that closed door
I'm independent
Self sufficient
But I don't know where that girl went
I'm the one they ask for help
Always there for someone else
Can't have my own problems
I'm the one who solves 'em
That's just how life's always been
I'm never there for me
Somewhere else I have to be
I can't afford to be lonely
Some of my friends won't talk to me
Now they're just like my family
It seems the ones I love the most
Are always first to leave their post
I let people take advantage of me
Pick them up, but when I fall they never see
Sometimes I wonder if they really care
Or if they'd even notice if I wasn't there
I've never felt like this before
Always been fine with that closed door
I'm independent
Self sufficient
But I don't know where that girl went
I'm the one they ask for help
Always there for someone else
Can't have my own problems
I'm the one who solves 'em
That's just how life's always been
I'm never there for me
Somewhere else I have to be
I can't afford to be lonely
I wish all these voices would just go away
Everything I do seems like such a waste
I'm writing these songs that no one's gonna play
They'll prob'ly just die out with me someday
I'm dying inside
Slowly killing my mind
Guess that's how it goes
When nobody knows
Don't know who to be
And I'm too scared to leave
But God knows I've never felt so lonely
Ooooh
I've never felt like this before
Always been fine with that closed door
I'm independent
Self sufficient
But I don't know where that girl went
I'm the one they ask for help
Always there for someone else
Can't have my own problems
I'm the one who solves 'em
That's just how life's always been
I'm never there for me
Somewhere else I have to be
I can't afford to be lonely
I've never been so lonely
Voices in my head getting loud
Wish that I could shut them out
But they're always here telling me who to be
And screaming these words on repeat
"You don't get to be lonely"