When I met you I was 12
And I was dumb and insecure
And I didn't know what all I couldn't possibly infer
All the chaos and destruction, all the shit that would ensure
All the harm that I'd cause you
You were protective, you were chivalrous
And altogether good
You were someone I could marry
That my parents thought I should
Let into my life, my genes, my soul and you wanted that too
And look what I did to you
So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I ruined your whole life like I thought you ruined mine
It was my fault the entire fucking time
So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I ruined your whole life like I thought you ruined mine
It was my fault the entire fucking time
You angered me eventually, you drove me up the wall
And by that I mean you made me think I wasn't sane at all
I cut my hair, you cut your wrists, at least you told me that you did
God, we were both such stupid kids
At some point, I had realized my life was living hell
So I went and blamed you for it, for my friends' nightmares as well
I cut my hair and dyed it the same day I cut you off
Turns out everyone else had the same thought
So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I broke your heart and left you friendless, I never wanted you to be
It was an accident I know you won't believe
So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I broke your heart and left you friendless, I never wanted you to be
It was an accident I know you won't believe
So yeah, you cracked the code, I'm a stone-cold heartless bitch
I'm a bad liar who somehow brainwashed everyone to think
That I'm completely innocent and fucked you up for fun
And spat in your face when I was done
God, what I would give to genuinely think
That I'm the good guy here and to not be on the brink
Of gouging my damn eyes out and throwing up my lungs
Because of guilt from shit I haven't even done
So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
You're such a cunt, you made me think that I'm a threat to public health
Hurry up, before I do it my damn self
So go ahead and shoot me, I'm not scared anymore
You've gotten this far killing me, there's just a little more
I'm already dead, just pull the trigger, you've destroyed my mental health
I'm not afraid to see the face of death itself
I'm not afraid to see the face of death itself