Just when I thought I had handled solace
I could soften my guard behind false confidence
Just when I felt humbled by insipid
Except from this blind side and from reading a script
Cause I am seduced by reaction and under the influence
I'm slipping again I'm up to my tricks off my wagon
I have no defense I'm reaking havoc
wreaking havoc in consequence
I get reduced by my own willfulness as
I reach for my usual god replacements
Cause I wish for sanction it lacks in my steps
Forgiveness is understanding that
Affirming a compact for the millionth time
On this tumbling house of cards of mine
I am beaten by my impulsiveness