Twice a week I pass by the church that held your funeral
And the pastors words come pouring down like rain
How he called you a sinner but said now you walk with Jesus
So the drugs that took your life arent gonna cause you any pain
I dont think he even knew your name
I refused to kneel or pray. I wont remember you that way
But I lit you a candle in every cathedral across Europe
I hope you know youre still my patron saint
I tried to forgive but I cant forget the cigar in his fist
I know that they were heartsick but I need someone to blame
And I know how they blame me. I know what youd say
Youd tell me it was your fault. I should put all my arrows away
Im sure there aint a heaven
But that dont mean I dont like to picture you there
I bet youre bumming cigarettes off saints
Im sure youre still singing
But Ill bet that youre still just a bit out of key
With that crooked smile pushing words across your teeth
You were heat lightning
You were a storm that never rolled in
You were the northern lights in a southern town, a caustic fleeting thing
Ill bury your memories in the garden
Ill watch them grow with the flowers in the spring
Ill keep you with me
These wolves in their suits and ties
Saying (kid you can trust me.)
Charming southern drawl, sunken eyes
Buying good will in hotel lobbies
They got fistfuls of pills to make sure you dont hurt no more
You dont gotta feel anything
Got their fangs in our veins
Got their voice in our heads
Got our arms in their grips
No, we cant shake free
This god damn machine; hungry and heartless
My whole generation got lost in the margin
We put our faith in you. You turned a profit
Now were drowning here under your waves
Drowning held under your waves
Drowning here. Drowning here
You cant have my friends. You cant have my brothers
You cant have my friends. You cant have my brothers
You cant have my friends. You cant have my brothers
You cant have me. No, you cant have me