I'm afraid of the social laziness that let Kitty Genovese die
And I'm afraid of the mob mentality that makes otherwise normal people go blind
I'm afraid of the way that the world works and I'm afraid of the words in my notebooks
I'm afraid that you all know that I am a pervert
But the big red bird that lives under the city
Doesn't give a damn about me and it dies every night
By burning alive
I'm afraid of my grandfathers cancer
And I'm afraid of my mom's dying arm
I'm afraid that I've somehow caused my family harm
I'm afraid that the ones I love won't have enough
I'm afraid that the ones I love won't have enough
It's harder to be yourself than it is to be anybody else
I wish I were a little less of a coward
But the big red bird that lives under the city
Doesn't give a damn about me and it dies every night
So I bought a knife
I am a knife