We stumble and stare at the carnival lights
That lit up New York City,
From the rooftop in Brooklyn
That was covered in bad graffiti.
And then I let a thousand splinters
Pierce right through my spoiled liver,
Whatever that was left of it.
'Cuz I cursed my lonely memory
With picture-perfect imagery.
Maybe I'm not dying
I'm just living in decaying cities,
But I'm still healthy, I'm still fine,
I'll be spending all my time readin' the obituaries.
But I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.
I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.
I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.
I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.
Cause I was the shadow of the waxwing slain
I felt the false azure from windowpanes
I am just freaking out, yeah I'll be fine.
But I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.
I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.
I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.
I will fuck this up,
I fucking know it.