love is a disease
it infects what you believe about yourself and the others you need
and love is not kind it won't smile and it won't shine
it isn't there when you need it. you can't save it and you can't delete it
and love is cruel and unforgiving and love is usually unwilling
to give you back what you've been building it will scorch the earth just cos you're tilling it
and like a cat you've been petting, for every day and every single week,
but when you need it and when you're feeling weak all it really wants to do is fall asleep
because love is vicious and love is spiteful but love also just doesn't care
so you can fight it but when you strike at it it'll just vanish like it was never there
but believe me it's still there, not in your shoes or heart or hair
cos i've looked in all the obvious places and still haven't found it anywhere
but when i find it i will kill it, so that i can get on with my life
and regain composure of my posture and control of the thoughts in my own mind
because love will break you apart.
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but now hate is accessible and jealousy is free
bitterness is easy and blame comes even easier for me.
And lust is a game that you always will lose
but who minds losing when each level has new contestants for you to choose
and you can yell out Okay i'm finished, now i want to win!
well too bad cos winning's not up to you, all you can do is choose when to begin
to start losing something different shaped vaguely like pride
but much bigger and much heavier and much much easier to find
and once you give that away you will know
by the sickness in your stomach and the numbness in your toes
because love will break you apart
and love will break you apart
love will break you apart
love is hard.