For hearing all my doubts so selectively and
For continuing my numbing love endlessly
For helping you and myself: not even considering
For beating myself up and over-functioning
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me
For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter
I would've naturally loved the former
For ignoring you: my highest voices