Lyrics of
Kevin Van Arkel - 2011

verse 1
It was many years ago when we brought you away.
The disease that you got, it wasn?t okay.
We didn?t speak about it, because that is how we are.
But we were crying out of our hearts.
verse 2
I got bullied at school and my grades, they were bad.
I didn?t care about it because you were in my head.
They thought I had some blackouts, at least that is what they said.
But I just couldn?t function with the problems in my head.
I do not want to think about it. I do not want to speak it out.
I don?t want to tell the truth to you because you won?t stay around.
I do not want to think about it. I do not want to speak it out.
I don?t want to tell the truth to you because you won?t stay around.
For that long?
For that long?
verse 3
My family was struggling and so was I.
We didn?t talk about it, all we did was fight.
We only used words, just to make clear.
But we knew that it hurt you, when you stood up out that chair.
verse 4
And you know that I?m sorry but I really can?t tell
Because that?s how we are, all our feelings, they are shelled.
And now I am crying, writing this song.
What is our purpose, what did I do wrong?
I do not want to think about it. I do not want to speak it out.
I don?t want to tell the truth to you because you won?t stay around.
I do not want to think about it. I do not want to speak it out.
I don?t want to tell the truth to you because you won?t stay around.
For that long?
For that long?
Verse 5
The school problems continued and I felt really depressed.
I dropped out of college and I didn?t get much rest.
What is he doing? And why is he gone.
That where the questions, but they were the last.
Bridge
The last to hear about it.
The last to get a text.
The last that thought about me.
And the last that did their best.
Outro