Come pick me up, I'll pay for gas
There's nowhere that I want to be
And you'll drive fast and I won't ask
To pick the music or the street
And we can talk about whatever
And pretend that we won't tell
Even pretending to ourselves
You think it's easy where it's darker
And I like to feel my heart
Speed up with my eyes shut
And feel we're doing something we should not
So for a time, I spend my life
Just trying to find out when to stop
Just trying to guess when we'll get caught
This place is suffocating
I'll still be here in 5 years
Like I promise I won't
Through the wind in your ears
But nothing feels as urgent
And these nights are still important
And there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet
Every time I feel alive
It will feel just like this
I'll get the things you did
Forget the boy I kissed by the hangar
And you'll both be strangers to me
Tonight it matters
How I'm not a person who you want to see
'Cause I like to talk about the hospital
And go when I don't need it
Just to show the world I feel it
I only ever did it once
And it was selfish, it was dumb
But I can't bring myself to
Hate me for wanting a break
I'll still be here in 5 years
Where I made every mistake
Sixteen trying to disappear
For one week and a half
You know it's all an act
'Cause there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet
This place is suffocating
I'll still be here in 5 years
Like I promise I won't
Through the wind in your ears
But nothing feels as urgent
And these nights are still important
And there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet