I'm just waiting for things to get better
But it's been so long I can't remember
What it feels like
To feel alive
Blood drops on the bathroom floor
Clean it up and then bleed some more
Sometimes I wish I didn't wake up that day
If I just kept sleeping it would be okay
But I know wounds will heal
But it's hard for me to tell what's fake and what's real
Sometimes I even think that I died that day
And I'm imagining my life and it's stuck on replay
If this is heaven, what the hell is hell?
What's the difference? I really can't tell
I'm burning in the flames of my own despair
With my thoughts as gasoline I cannot be repaired
And I know wounds will heal
But it's hard for me to tell what's fake and what's real
Sometimes I wish I didn't wake up that day
If I just kept sleeping I would be okay
And I know (you don't have to tell me)
Cause I know (you're better off without me)
And I know it will be okay
Just counting the days, counting the days, counting the days
Your words mean nothing to me 'cause I've heard them
Your words mean nothing to me, I don't deserve them
You only say what you have to say
You say, you say, you say it, you say it just to say it
If this is heaven, what the hell is hell?
What's the difference? It's hard to tell
I'm burning in the flames of my own despair
With my thoughts as gasoline I cannot be repaired
Your words mean nothing to me 'cause I've heard them
Your words mean nothing to me, I don't deserve them
You only say what you have to say
You say, you say, you say it, you say it just to say it
And I know (you don't have to tell me)
Cause I know (you're better off without me)
And I know it will be okay
Just counting the days, counting the days, counting the days
Your words mean nothing to me 'cause I've heard them
Your words mean nothing to me, I don't deserve them
But I know I'll be okay
Just counting the days, counting the days, counting the days